• My Spiritual Journey

Gururbrahma gururvishnuh gururdevomaheshwarah,

 Guruh sakshatparabrahmah tasmai shri gurave namah.

           

Prostrating at the sacred lotus feet of my most worshipful Sadgurudev and Divine Mother Adishakti Jagajjanani Bhagawati Durga Ji, I pray that whatever words or feelings are surging in my mind, I may take them down on paper through a pen, so that whoever reader or Divine Mother’s devotee reads these words, he may register them on the screen of his heart completely.

This book is the result of those questions, which, from my childhood continued to arise and erase on the screen of my mind. But, no yogi, ascetic, tantric, mantric, head of regilious community or regilious preceptor was available, who could satisfy me.

The questions were : What is this cosmos ? Who has created it ? What is beyond it ? Who is the fundamental progenitrix of us all ? The cycle of Nature, which is going on day and night, what is this ? Why is it going on ? In our Hindu scriptures, description of many incarnations is available, such as Matsyavatar, Kachhapavatar, Varahavatar, Nrisinghavatar, Vamanavatar, Parashuramavatar, Ramavatar, Krishnavatar, Buddhavatar and Kalki Avatar. Amongst them, who is the greatest ? If all of them are incarnations, then who is he, whose incarnations all these are ? When Lord Rama and Lord Krishna had incarnated, at that time, where had we been ? Had we been in their era too ? Have we also ever seen them ? Have we been fortunate of remaining close to them in their era ? Today, in this kaliyug also, information regarding the descent of Kalki avatar is being received through our scriptures and puranas. Shall we be able to see Him and spend our life in His proximity ? There were many such questions, but neither there was answer to them, nor any person, who could provide answer. With this, my mind was restless.

There was anscestral land at my home. My mind did not fix on it too. My father was running a mechanical workshop. I could not foster a liking for that too. Even, I could not have a liking for my studies. I am a resident of Dist. Mahoba (U.P.). From there, Chitrakoot Dham is only 90 kms. away. I had a routine of visiting that place every month. I approached many holy men there too, but my mind could not get peace. Meanwhile, I performed pilgrimages to various places too, visited many religious organizations also and met several saints too. Whoever told whatever adorative routine, I tried to adopt that in my life. At one time, I worshipped Lord Rama, and at another time, I worshipped Lord Krishna. For some time, I worshipped Lord Shiva and for some time, I performed recitation of Hanuman Chalisa. Some saint told me that Sun is the visible god. So, for some time, I performed recitation of Surya Chalisa also.But, inspite of adopting these activities, neither I obtained answer to my questions, nor did peace accrue to my mind. Meanwhile, somebody asked me to meet Shri Ram Sharma Acharya, Chief Director of Gayatri Pariwar at Hardwar. He is well-versed realized person. Hearing him, I set out on a journey to Hardwar and arrived in Shanti Kunj, the headquarter of Gayatri Pariwar, Hardwar. But, through the ascetics there, I became known that Shri Ram Sharma Acharya will remain busy in his adorations at a secluded place for one year. Hearing this, I returned home from there.

After some time, on my family’s advice, I went to Jhansi (U.P.) to attend TV and computer repair training course. There I had a chance to read  Mantra-Tantra-Yantra Science Magazine, published from  Jodhpur (Rajasthan). It contained the description of many adorations and acuisition of supernatural powers and also description of camps relating to these very acuisitions, which were organized in Jodhpur itself. The writer of this magazine was Dr. Narayan Datta Shrimali Ji. I thought that possibly answer to my questions may be available from there and I may get peace. With this hope, I went to Jodhpur ( Rajasthan) and was initiated also by worshipful Shrimali Ji. I spent valuable six years of my life in his proximity, but there too, answer to my questions could not be available, although I served him with full sincerity and spirit and remained with full dedication, but disappointment accrued from there too. Yes, one thing surely happened there that when I was living there, at that very time, a divine man came there in white clothes. I was very much impressed by him. He said something to Shrimali Ji, but he refused to agree to that. He remained there for an ascertained duration. Then he went away, but certainly he gave me his address. Although, I took his address, but could not take a decision. Remaining with Shrimali Ji, I participated in many adorative camps organized by him. I saw people accomplishing many adorations, but I could not meet any such devotee, who had accomplished any adoration fully. And, I returned home from there too with a feeling of dissatisfaction. But, that address was still available with me. I contacted on that very address. Reply came,‘‘My sixth Mahashakti Yagya is being accomplished in Madhya Pradesh. Immediately join that and you will get answer to your questions’’. Just reading that letter, next day I started for Madhya Pradesh. I reached the site of the yagya at12 O’clock midnight. All the workers were sleeping at that time, but that realized man putting on a yellow dhoti, was standing at the door, as if he was waiting merely for me. On looking at me, he uttered  these words,  ‘‘Come on, Chauhan. I was waiting for you. Did you face any trouble in the way ?’’  Mechanically operated, I bowed at his feet. He blessed me and led me away inside. After waking up the chief workers present there at that very time, he introduced me to them. Having managed for my rest, he went to his bed room.

Next morning, the yagya started again. There was no learned Brahman or yajaman( one, who pays for the performance of yagya) in it, but that very great man, was reciting mantra and offering oblations in the yagya. The yagya continued for seven hours constantly. Fire was completely blazing. In front of the yagya altar, a seven feet high idol of Divine Mother, fully characterized by consciousness, was established. He was accomplishing the yagya with fully intent mind. In this duration, neither he got up from his seat, nor drank water, nor he spoke anything to anybody. After accomplishing the yagya, he performed last adoration and went to his meditation room.

During the yagya, a miracle was seen. In the very middle of the hall, a cloth curtain was fixed, by means of which, the hall was divided into two parts. In one part, there was Divine Mother’s idol fully characterized with consciousness, yagya altar and seat of Yogiraj. On  the other side, arrangement was made for Divine Mother’s devotees belonging to all classes to sit peacefully and recite mantra. When sitting with the devotees, I continued to repeat mantra for hours together, there was no feeling of sleep or laziness of any kind. And, when I repeated the mantra for thirty minutes sitting on the other side, laziness and sleep immediately began to oppress. I clearly experienced that in this adorative Mahashakti Yagya, there exists a certain type of energy of Divine Mother Jagajjanani Jagadmba Ji in the circle of the yagya site at the time of yagya. It was also experienced that at the time of the yagya, subtle presence of Divine Mother Jagajjanani Jagadmba Ji certainly remains.

Prior to this, I had a chance to participate in many yagyas, but such type of miraculous energy was experienced for the first time in my life. Well then, the yagya continued for eleven days and many miraculous events continued to happen. At the completion of the yagya, complete oblation was offered, which was also quite full of unearthly sequences. After this, Yogiraj Ji sermonized in the evening. In that, he explained about him in detail. He said, ‘‘If you want to know about me, identify me and know about the vastness of my yagyas, then read the prophecies of many prophets at home and abroad. My complete introduction will be available in those prophecies as to who I am, what I am, when I would be born and what my activities would be. My name, my father’s name, my village of birth, province, sphere of activities, all has been lettered in their prophecies. You are required to read and follow their prophecies deeply.

I heard and startled what was he saying ! I was in a confusion. Immediately, a question flashed in my brain, ‘‘ Then, is merely he the ‘Avatari Purush’ (man having divine qualities) of this era ? The detailed account regarding Kalki Avatar is available in Kalki Puran. Is merely he that incarnation ?’’ This question started arising in my mind repeatedly. He further said, ‘‘If you try to match those prophecies of prophets from home and abroad with any other religious preceptor or head of religious community, they will not match even 25% . And, if you will match with this body, they will match 100%. Whatever prophecies have been written, they have been written about me. Precisely, I am that ‘‘Yug Chetana Purush’’(man of era consciousness). That’s all, on hearing these words, I was in confusion. I did not believe that this divine man would be incarnation of this era. I remained fixing the gaze at him. But, I had seen many miraculous events during this Mahashakti Yagya. Therefore, I was completely sure that certainly he is an incarnate person. But, if this thing is told to the society, it will not be readily acceptable to them, because it is the age of science, where everything is weighed on the balance of evidences.

Through these events, although the curiosities arising in my mind got ended, but certainly a longing arose that the truth I have come to know, may be put before the society with complete evidence and compel them to bow at the feet of this man of the era, so that along with me, welfare of the society too may be effected. But, this was not so easy. However, it was not impossible also, which I could not make possible.

Rest of his sermon passed in this very dilemma. I do not know what he said further. After the accomplishment of the Mahashakti Yagya, next day, the procession of Divine Mother Jagajjanani for consigning Her idol to water, was taken out with gay and fervour. This was a subject of talk amongst all children and old men that such a procession for consigning an idol to water was never seen by them in their life. Whole of the city got up and danced. This procession also was completely full of many supernatural miracles. By virtue of this, faith deepened further more.

Next day was the programme of Guru Deeksha (initiation into disciplehood to the master). I was in a complete confusion. I expressed that anguish of inner heart at the feet of worshipful Yogiraj Ji. He ended all confusion going on within me and gave me commandment for Guru Deeksha in order to accompany with a new spiritual journey. My whole body got enraptured and I too sat down in line with those going to be initiated. Tears were constantly flowing from my eyes and it was not in my control to stop them. The time of Guru Deeksha came and my initiation rite too  was accomplished. It is to be known that on the day of complete oblation in this sixth Mahashakti Yagya, most worshipful Paramhans Yogiraj Shri Shaktiputra Ji Maharaj had acquired initiation by Adishakti Divine Mother Bhagawati Jagajjanani Jagadamba Ji to renounce the world. After this, it was the first adorative sequence of Yogiraj Ji to initiate His devotees into disciplehood. In this He, first of all, blessed me in the form of Guru Deeksha. I acknowledged Him as guru with full sincerity and dedication. After this, I set out in search of those evidences, for which He had indicated to me.

For just that very reason, I studied well the books relating to the prophecies of many famous prophets at home and abroad. Having studied those books, although I gained complete faith, but the problem was that it was a difficult task to cause the society to read and explain the meaning of so many books. For this very reason, a desire arose that authentic prophecies of those books be compiled and given a shape of a book, so that through it the whole society may satisfy themselves.